Re: Conscience
- Subject: Re: Conscience
- From: James Lee Hamilton <felix@intrstar.net>
- Date: Wed, 06 Nov 1996 20:12:30 -0500
- 21: 18:02 -0500
Kurt,
Sometimes Dennis is a little blatant, a little "over-the-top" to me, and it
pisses me off. Probably the reason it pisses me off is that I am projecting
onto him my own assholedness. To that view, he sets himself up for
it...well, if he IS anything like me, then that IS what he would be doing.
Anyway, he's doing something, and I'm damn suspicious. What if he turns out
to be just like me? What would I do then? What if all the bad qualities I
see in Dennis...are the same qualities I see in myself as bad...and Dennis
is a freaking Christ-like wonderful person...and knows...knows..GodDamnIt,
that I am falsely accusing him, and Knows... that 'I' know my comments are
false accusations, and what if he really is the Christ...and I really Do go
to hell because I was blinded to the passions of my own evil twin Felix. Oh,
Shit..., ooohh...shit....
Damn, I wish I were a better human being! Ain't life grand?
Regards,
James